this summer has been really cool and nice. besides some health problems and montreal’s surprisingly stifling heat waves, i have had a real calm and good time. i have done many things i wanted to do. i figured out tapes with nick. i’m currently planning cd’s with dandy. i spent a lot of time with my friends and girlfriend. i took some nice pictures. i traveled and will do some traveling. i ate so, so many vegetables. i put in lots of hours of work. i slept a lot. i played my first music festival.
i even did some things that i hadn’t planned on. for example, i taught myself a lot of graphic design this summer. i started a weird, great, pointless talk show. i got closer to some friends. i started a collaborative project with many of my artist friends that is turning out so beautiful i have actually felt like crying from joy and overwhelming happiness.
today i decided i didn’t want to leave the apartment. i wanted to sit in front of a fan and edit videos and watch star trek with katrina. i am living in a house full of people i genuinely love and admire more than anything. also, the grocery / depanneur a block away sells all the different stewart’s flavors.
orange and key lime and cream soda are my faves. thanks katrina.
katrina doesn’t like having her picture taken and disseminated to strangers.
there are some things i wanted to do that i didn’t do. i wasn’t able to save up a lot of money. i didn’t see some people i really wanted to reconnect with. some of my relationships are in strange and uncomfortable places. my life plans sound hard. on the bright side, i am still very much committed to my dreams and values. i am almost extra motivated, because i have slowly come to realize how challenging existing can be.
you know what really motivates me to work hard? job listings on linkedin. linkedin always suggests the coolest jobs to me. yes i would love to spend half my time in denmark writing reports on how to more safely mass-produce food enzymes, and the other half wandering around large factories taking pictures. yes please.
this summer i wrote a lot of songs. i feel wonderful about them. here is my album cover. i hope it doesn’t embarrass my grandmother, whose friends read my blog and sometimes send me anonymous questions about homosexuality.
here’s the back cover:
they both contain film pictures, which is funny cause i have a creeping criticism of nostalgia for times that are not your own (at least, for their cool aesthetics). the front one was taken in raleigh, the back one in sewanee. the font is called special elite, which might be a spy reference. i want to make more fonts, that’s a really fun activity (i didn’t make this one).
the album will be out on august 3rd, which is my 20th birthday.
in the end i think i will always have complicated feelings about my body, complicated motivations to get out of bed, and several strange art projects in the works. i will probably have bad caffeine habits, will take pictures at beautiful if inopportune moments, and will not be afraid to tell my friends that i love them and that they’re really special and important to me. i’ve really had a nice time this summer. life is weird. thanks for reading.